Refreshed & Recharged

Maybe not so refreshed.......We have just come back from a weekend camp with our churches Youth group & Young adults group down the coast in a beautiful hinterland location. It was a great event! Very challenging and confronting, alot was talked about not compartmentalising or individualising our faith as christians. For me persoanlly I have been trying to figure out what God's Plan for me is, where my path is leading me? Not sure if this weekend answered that question for me but my heart was tugged by ideas, I want to get back into some volunteer work, but I am trying to be realistic that I can't do any more volunteer work without having a job first to help pay for the travel associated with volunteer posistions.

Over the weekend I also attended a talk about sexual issues & the church, it was a rather confronting talk. Not sure where I stand, think I need to go over the notes we were given and really read and pray over the verses we were given. The one thing I know is that these issues are something that needs to be talk about with our Youth and Young adults. I did feel that this talk was something that I can keep in my mind when we are doing more Girls Only Events. Girls Only Events are definatly something that I want to keep going, that it is important for girls (of all ages for that matter) to know that they are loved as-they-are by our God the creator of the Universe, and that we (as girls) need to be confident in that knowledge and comfortable with who we are.

Personally I am comfortable with who I am, but I don't always do what I know is best for me. Sometimes just following other, going with the flow, is just easier. This was another typic that was covered over the weekend. The one bit that I really took away from this particular topic is that it is ok that I am married and don't have kids, that it is a pressure that is place upon women from within the church. Get married and then have kids. You can not make anyone else happy, people are always going to want something else from you. Girls you are fearfully and wonderfully made, just-as-you-are. You are loved by our father in heaven and he knows what is to come in your path, just trust him and obey.

Group Interview

Well here I am back from my group interview in the city. I will totally admit to not feeling too good about the interview, I had no idea what to expect or if I could even directly compete with others in such a way. But things I think went really well, I had my husband with me which was great as he is a manager of a store and we talked about what he would want to hear from an applicant for the type of position I was going for.

Got there alittle early, enough time to go to the bathroom and freshen up abit (was wearing black pants and it was alittle hot in the city today). then I sat down with the other people who had also turned up for the interview, made eye contact with everyone and tried to be apart of the conversation that was going on. Then we went in.....

We all took our seats, I sat in the front row and tried to sit pretty central and made alittle small talk with the person who I was sitting next to. First thing we had to do was to introduce ourselves and answer a few questions so that the interviewers could get to know us. Personally thought what I said was the best, but that is completely my own opinion. Tired to be first but they decided to go around the room so I ended up being about 3rd last, tried to learn from what the people ahead of me were saying, and listened intently to each person, smiling when they would make eye contact with me. Wanted to appear supportive and friendly.

Next we played a game, it was very simple we just sat in a circle and said one word each that described the company that we were applying to work for. Again felt like I did pretty well, only passed once and tried to recall as much as I could from the research that I did about the company the night before, soooo glad that I did that really helped.

Then we moved onto selling, there were a few people who didn't have any sale experience so I felt quite comfortable here, being that I have had 1 year of sale experience. Just tried to apply that experience and the sale technique that I have used in the past to this new area. Seem to work quite well. Got a chance to chat with another girl, tried the whole way through to build relationship with the people who were interviewing us and with those who were sitting around me.

Next we did role plays, this is something that I have never quite enjoyed, but have found if you just go first you get marked better and is over much quicker. This time I took the chance and volunteered to be the Manager of the store, trying to pick an idea to the manager of a fitness centre, really think that I had some good ideas that really seemed to do well with the interviewers.

And then it was over, over all it was scary or nerve racking and I will say that I also probably enjoyed myself. Felt that I show my personality and got across that I believe that I would be the right person for the job. So now all I have to to is wait to see if I get a call for the second round of interviews, these will be one on one a format that I am much more familiar with.

To finish I just want to say a big "Thank You" to my wonderful husband who made the trip into the city with me I really appreciated the support and advice. Now it is just a matter of waiting to see if this is going to be my new path that God as set out for me.

Keeping busy

Busy, busy, busy you are told to keep busy, keep your brain occupied and you won't be depressed or go crazy. I still replayed the moment over and over in my head for days, still do now. But I have been blessed with an event that I started to organise a couple of week before I got fired.

Girls only events, something we thought up to get the girls at church together who were going away to camp together (this weekend actually). We had a chocolate night last night, took alittle planning up it was worth it. This event was a welcome distraction, and maybe this is God telling me that this is what he wants me to do with my life. I do feel an affiliation with girls, and more so that just because I am a girl. I want the girls at church to know that they have someone that they can talk to, someone who has been there. Especially for the girls who are the oldest in their families, they I feel a special affiliation with afterall I am the oldest in my family. This event has been a great distraction, and I am really looking forward to doing something else.

Speaking of new paths, I have a job interview. 2IC position, with a sporting apparel store, alittle outside my personality but I do love being active. Thing is it's a group interview in the city, abit scary. When I got the email my first reaction was "no not for me", but moving forward does mean taking new chances, pushing myself and this is defiantly pushing myself. I will let you know how it goes.

Changing moment

I was watching Dr Phil one day and he made a statement that really made me stop and think, 'who you are can be defined by by 3 defining moments and is affected by 10 people' or is it the other way around? Something like that anyway. Then I couldn't really think of too many moments that were 'defining moments' times when my life too a distinctively different turn.

Until now.......I got fired a week ago. Through my own stupidity and probably arrogance, I got fired. This is the first time I have lost a job, through being fired. Funny thing is I didn't really cry, I got depressed but I was and am determined to put everything behind me and move forward.

That is what this blog is about moving forward, I don't know where I am going or what God has planned for me. Here I go...........